Of,

Of ups and downs,of twists and turns,of joys and sorrows, of love and hate, of rain and shine, of heart and aches, of hope and faith.

I wonder where will it land on next?

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I can't wait

I can't wait to

• indulge in a Dominos pizza
• see my good friend all radiant and beautiful on the most important moment of her life
• scream and have a good time with my secondary school bestie
• celebrate and be there for  my good friend's special day 
• watch my most anticipated movie with my best friend
• have a  picnic with friends

In short, I can't wait for my exams to end!

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Blessed

A few saturdays back,

  

Middle eastern food, club company as well as pretty cupcakes celebrating a certain president's birthday. Did I mention we dined  under the oil lamp? It was certainly an enjoyable experience.

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Restart.

I feel awfully miserable keeping it all inside of me. I've been a fool and I've been so blind.

But,

Tonight I'm going to cut it out and restart.
Its always darkest before the dawn.

I'll be okay

It wasn't easy to watch you change. It wasn't easy to see that I was going to lose you to because you decided to grow up. I don't want to grow "out" of the things that I love. I am going to miss you, but there wasn't a way to tell you that. You kept insisting that you're still the same person.

But I'll be okay. I'll move on and accept this. After all, change is all part of life. Even if it involves the people you care about. But it also path a way for me to be stronger, to be independent and to appreciate the things that He has bestowed to me.

I'll be okay.

Promise.
(only do remember that things can never revert back to the same moments that it was once before)

That is what you think. It’s hard to discern when the change happened though; it’s hard to tell when you became incapable of shaking things off like you once did, when you stopped believing the promises of a shirtless boy in a dark bedroom, when a fight with a best friend turned into years of a steady and slow dissolve. All you know is that it happened. Don’t know how. Don’t know when. But here you are: hurting yourself for different reasons. Here you are hurting yourself and it actually starting to feel like pain. The lows aren’t so dramatic. There’s no screaming, no yelling, no visible anger. Instead they just creep under your skin and stay there, chipping away at your resolve. The permanence terrifies you. The permanence is proof that you can no longer afford to be silent when it comes to running your life. (When Did Everything Change?, through catalog)

 Do not give up on yourself, because change is usually slow; you will encounter obstacles that will discourage you but do not let these obstacles defeat you. — Dr. A’id al-Qarni

 Do not run away from strong winds because they come to lift you higher and higher. Allah in His infinite wisdom is drawing you closer to Him through Trials. There is a powerful and amazing thing about tawbah (repentance) and turning back to Allah (swt). We are told that it is a polish for the heart. What’s amazing about a polish is that it doesn’t just clean. It makes the object that is polished even shinier than it was before it got dirty. If you come back to God, seek His forgiveness, and refocus your life and heart on Him, you have the potential to be even richer than if you’d never fallen at all. Sometimes falling and coming back up gives you wisdom and humility that you may never otherwise have had — Yasmin Mogahed

Hey I found this cute song and...

I just love the lyrics of this song (I feel like tip toeing and singing it, not that it relates to me or anything, I just find it sweet) and the whole concept of the video. I think its simple yet deeply beautiful in one way or another. Now back to memorizing my concepts! Its just barely two weeks left before I wrap up my semester! Can't wait!

Do enjoy this song <3
Much love.
A.